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 Purjolök


Simple and slow life is so important to me. It is a space for my everyday activism, practising minimalism and zero-waste, reading and writing. Recently, things have been different. My partner had an operation and he cannot walk. All the household duties and activities came my way. I have a very positive attitude to care, but engaging in care work meant that I had less time for other things. In the very beginning, I felt overwhelmed. I was trying to be as good as I could be at caring, and at the same time finish the first draft of my book. But over time, I adjusted to this new situation. I began to see the moments of self-care as sacred. I do not associate self-care with consumption at all. For me, self-care is going for a walk on my own. Making tea and enjoying it. When it's sunny, I would stop doing whatever I was doing, and would spend some quality time with the sun. I also began to bring my attention, more than ever before, to the magic in everyday life. The roots of leek, the skin of celeriac, the crust of bread, the colour of chamomile tea, the scent of coffee, the pattern of frost of my window. There are hundreds of things that make everyday life magical. 

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 Finishing the first draft

I am sitting with the stones from Sweden, Finland, and Denmark. I picked up the Swedish stone when I was in Ångermanland with some fellow humans from my university department in northern Sweden. The Finnish stones I picked on the island in Finland where I used to live. The Danish one I picked up on the beach in Amager in Copenhagen where I live now. 

I'm feeling happy but also somewhat exhausted. Today I finished the first draft of my book called "Degrowth, depth and hope in sustainable business: Reflections from Denmark, Finland and Sweden". The book will be out with Routledge. A while ago, Routledge reached out to me and asked me if I was planning to write my own book. 2023 was the most challenging year of my life, and I wrote the book in 2023. On multiple occasions I wanted to postpone writing this book as I was going through many struggles. But at the same time, those struggles revealed something to me. I also felt so much empathy for the struggles and journeys of others. In this book everything that I have been thinking about since 2016 (the year I started writing my PhD on degrowth and business) has crystallised. All my reflections, thoughts, learnings, and ideas about degrowth and business. In this book, I weave together Danish, Finnish and Swedish businesses' stories and my own experiences of living in Sweden, Finland and Denmark. This book is very personal and written in a gentle way. I wanted it to be raw, natural. I embraced so many things that are still unfortunately excluded from most academic spaces. Vulnerability, compassion, subjectivity, love.